Currently Loving ♥

Hello lovely, today I felt like writing about some of the things I've been currently loving, which includes the delicious peppermint spearmint tea I'm sipping on. I've definitely had lot's of inspiration to write and that means more blog posts! Some of these things that I've been loving are new to me and some of them I've always liked but knew I loved enough to include it in this post!

Okay, so I'll begin with my favourite blog that I've been following for a very long time. Love, Catherine written by the gorgeous Catherine is a blog all about beauty, as well as hair, baking and life posts too. Her blog has everything that's pretty and pink! Not only is her blog beautiful, but her content is helpful and very enjoyable to read. If you haven't already you should most definitely check out her blog. I think you'll love her monthly photo diaries just as much as I do!

My favourite band has for several years been OneRepublic. There are so many bands that I like a few songs from, but OneRepublic is the only band that I like pretty much every song. I've been listening to their new album Oh My My recently and I have to say that I wasn't into every song. But the ones that I did like I loved! These include Future Looks Good, Colours, A.I, Better, and NbHD. But I still like their first three albums better!

Going To The Gym
I absolutely love working out if I enjoy what I'm doing. I'm used to training 3 times a week and when my sisters and I stopped I felt my fitness declining, that's why mum and I got a membership at the gym instead! I like to go around 5 times a week and vary my workout. I tend to do full body every time though even if I focus a little more on something in particular. I can feel that I'm regaining my strength after training began going downhill. So I'm glad we decided to go to the gym instead as I can go as many times a week as I want and I'm in charge of what I'm doing. :D

Okay so this is an app I found a while ago but forgot about and deleted it when I thought I didn't want it anymore. Just recently I re-downloaded it and oh my god I'm obsessed! It's so fun and makes everything so much cuter! If you haven't heard of it before, it's an app that lets you create your own personal emoji character. You can customise everything from the shape of their face, eyes, hair, noise, dimples and even wrinkles! Dress it up in your favourite outfits too! I love using it on Snapchat!

Skam
If you haven't heard of this yet, Skam is a Norwegian web series about teenagers in Norway. This is the only series that I'm currently obsessed with and it's great for me as I'm picking back my Norwegian even if it is slowly. The only thing is that it is in Norwegian and I ahven't found any English subtitles yet so it may not interest some of you. But still I had to put Skam in this post as it is absolutely one of the things I'm currently loving!

Alrighty, so those are the things I'm loving currently. I actually really enjoyed writing this post and I hope you enjoyed reading it! I will definitely be doing more of these. xx

My Eventful November || Graduating High School!


Hello lovely! It's been over a month since I last posted on my blog and I started to really miss it! I've had so many urges to sit down and write a good post but between everything going on I just couldn't get myself to write something I actually wanted to share. I have several drafts saved that are half done and I never got around to finishing them because I didn't actually like what I had written in the first place. 

So anyways, November for me this year has been incredibly eventful. Of course I've had my usual appointments, and I'm also towards the end of my trial and error medication, which unfortunately hasn't worked again (read my previous headache post to know more about this). Also during this time I was crammed with my final exams and assessments and sorting things out for formal. And now I have finally graduated high school! And yes I know this is only just the beginning, and I'm really excited about starting new things. Our formal was a blast, everyone looked gorgeous and it was definitely a great way to finish. 

I was going to upload the photos from the night but I didn't know if some people would rather if I didn't, so I'm just sharing a couple of my friends and I.




I won't go into all the details but I thought I would very quickly share with you how stressful getting the makeup sorted was. So originally I had booked my makeup with Benefit Cosmetics, I got there and everything was good to go. I already had my hair done so I didn't actually have all that much time to get to the pre formal. Anyways, the lady is all nice and while she does my makeup she tells me what she's doing and it sounds exactly like what I was wanting. She said she would show me at the end so that it took less time but I peaked in the reflection of my phone and that's when I freaked out. While she left quickly to grab whatever she went to get, I picked up the mirror and looked closer at the makeup and oh my god it was terrible. I knew right then that there was no way I was going to formal with that makeup but I didn't know what to do. I was sitting there really stressed as I was running out of time and knew I was going to remove it and do it myself. But I just couldn't get myself to say anything to her. A few minutes later I decided to just do it and let her know as nicely as I could that the makeup just wasn't what I was hoping for. She kept persisting that she could change the style but I knew it would look the same, as in the foundation looked like she had packed on that powdery looking cheese that comes in those Mac&Cheese things. I was as nice as I could be about it though and I felt so so bad. But after getting home and quickly doing my own makeup I went and got there nearly on time with a face that I didn't feel like crying in. So everything worked out in the end! Even though my makeup didn't last perfectly the whole night as that wasn't really the main thing for me. 

Okay, so I guess reading that back November doesn't sound all that eventful, but it definitely felt pretty hectic. Now I have the longest holiday ever so I'll be back to blogging! I've also got a new job over this Christmas break and it's great, I'm hoping I'll get to stay on after Christmas break is over. Please let me know in the comments what posts you would like to see, would you like more beauty related posts, hair, lifestyle, a day in the life type posts? I know I'll be doing some DIY posts soon as well!

Happy blogging! 

Three Days of Infusion Therapy...



Hello lovely! Welcome to my blog, I hope you've had a great day! Today I wanted to share with you what has happened in the last three days in regards to my chronic headache journey. If you didn't already know, I was diagnosed with something called New Daily Persistent Headache not too long ago, though I've had this since July last year. You can read all about that here (this post is before I got a professional diagnosis even though I knew NDPH is what I had). I've also written a post after finally being diagnosed here. NDPH is not like a daily headache that reoccurs. It just never ends. That's why I can't write down when the headache starts and ends because it started once (in July) and is yet to end. Anyways, the two posts that I've linked delve deeper into the details of living with New Persistent Headache so if you're interested in reading about the condition I would love it if you had a read. 

Just to recap really briefly, I have had several scans and tests including MRI's with and without Gadolinium Contrast Medium (a dye injection to see more clearly) with all results coming back clear. I've tried a LONG list of medications with absolutely no affect, they didn't even take the top of the pain off. Just to clear this question up (I've been asked quite a few times so just thought I would mention) pain killers do not touch the headache even though they help with other pain. I've tried acupuncture, massages and diet changes with no affect. I've also gone months without any medication to see if it happened to be a cluster headache (even though the symptoms didn't exactly match the cluster headache criteria.)

I've seen many doctors and specialists who either haven't listened to me, didn't believe me, or gave up on me after they ran out of suggestions. They refused to acknowledge my suggestion about NDPH as they had never heard of it and didn't think it was a real thing. IT IS A REAL THING! Also just another thing I want to point out is that this is an immune based headache. 

Because I was being thrown around between different doctors and getting no where, mum and I took it upon ourselves and not long ago we contacted that neurologist in Melbourne who is a leading headache expert in Australia and he is the first person to know what I am talking about. It was after this that we found out we had an appointment with the neurologist here so after a little more mucking around from doctors we FINALLY saw the neurologist on Wednesday. Mum asked that the two neurologists communicate and they did. The neurologist here decided to try infusion therapy, which I was all up for. I forgot the medical terminology and medication names but it basically meant I would spend three days in hospital with three rounds of infusions. Now if I'm honest the idea of tubes and needles really freak me out. So having that cannula in my arm for three days was not something I could forget about. 

DAY ONE

I was admitted on Thursday morning and got my cannula put in a little bit later. That was not the most pleasant feeling especially because I just really hate that kind of stuff. I'll obviously skip over all that paper work stuff because it's boring and go straight to when I began my first round of infusions later that day. The machine was quite loud but it didn't bother that much. I got a little drowsy from it but it didn't affect me as much as it was supposed to. My mum and sister left before I finished the infusion, I thought I would be lonely the nurses were so lovely and I had several friends messaging me good luck! The first night was difficult to sleep because I couldn't forget about the tube in my arm and the lady in the next room (divided my curtains) was breathing so incredibly loud. Other than that and being woken up for check ups every four hours, it wasn't so bad. 

DAY TWO

The second day I woke up to some weird breakfast. I had porridge but I swear it was soaked and blended popcorn! I had a shower (I was so glad that I could shower, out of everything my biggest worry was honestly not being able to shower! Maybe it wasn't my biggest worry but it was definitely up there!) Soon afterwards the neurologist popped in to see me and he said I was very resilient to treatment. He then discussed how the treatment would go including the medications when I leave the hospital. 

Then a few hours later we started round two of infusions. This one hit me harder and I was basically knocked out. I woke up to mum in my room and that was so nice seeing as I was alone before. The second day was also the day I started on my new cocktail of medications. Seriously, the list is so long that the neurologist here was a bit apprehensive of giving it to me (the neurologist in Melbourne is the one who gave this combination as he has had good success with it for this very specific headache. Because this is considered to be one of the most treatment refractory headache conditions we needed a much more aggressive approach). I got fairly nauseas after these medications so I was in bed pretty much all day. 

Later that night one of the doctors who was checking up on me noticed something off with my pupils. There were several doctors who came in to double check and that made me a little nervous. They then told me that they would be checking up on me every hour instead of every four hours so I wished myself good luck with sleep that night! And let me tell you how darn bright that torch light is when they shine it in your eyes at night. The next morning they told me that my eyes were dilating as they were supposed to but one was larger than the other. It's all normal now though so nothing to worry about. 

DAY THREE

Day three breakfast was better! :D 
I actually felt like I slept better than I usually do. This morning was pretty much the same as the other two. Continuous checkups, nurses chatting to me sometimes and then the medications. The third round of infusions happened earlier than the previous two, which meant I would be able to go home sooner than I thought! Again, I got very drowsy. Soon my most feared part would be coming up. Taking out the cannula! I was nervous. It actually didn't hurt at all though, the worst part was the tape. Then I was on my way home to wash my hair (best feeling ever) and sleep, but I ended up falling asleep first.

So that's what happened in the last three days! Now the actual worst part is that the infusion therapy didn't affect on my headache either. So I've got my hopes on this combination! 

Hope you enjoyed reading this post and keeping up with this headache journey (not really sure what to call it).

Essence Matt Touch Blush 'Berry Me Up!'

Hello lovely! Today I wanted to write about the Essence Matt Touch Blush in the shade 'Berry Me Up!' I purchased this a few months ago at Priceline for approximately $5, a very affordable price just like the rest of Essence's products. I personally quite like most of the Essence products even though they can look like a child's makeup line. The quality isn't high-end as such, but for the price you can't go wrong. Anyways, back to the blush. I've never really been a blush person as my cheeks are already very pink, even after putting on foundation my cheeks still peek through. I decided to try this one out because it is both matt and affordable. 




To start off, the packaging isn't impeccable, but it keeps together and that's all I need. It 
opens and closes (with a click) so I wouldn't be worried about the product openingmand getting everywhere (if you were to put it in a bag). On the back of the packaging the name of the colour is clearly started and I always like it when they have fun names!

Now onto the actual blush. The colour is a cool berry pink shade (it may look slightly warmer in the photos). Formula wise, the blush is smooth and lovely to apply. It doesn't look overbearing but is still visible. Obviously you can build up the colour to however much you desire, I personally prefer a subtle blush and I can easily achieve that with this product. 

I can't say exactly how long this blush lasts throughout the day because after a few hours my natural pink cheeks have become more prominent so I cannot tell when the blush actually disappears. It definitely lasts a few hours though without primer or setting spray.

Overall, I'm very happy with this blush and will continue to use it. I only have one other blush at the moment and it is another Essence blush from a different line. I do however prefer this one as it is matt and the other one has a slight sparkly sheen (which is nice too). 

I hope you liked this post and enjoy the rest of your day!

Chatty Life Update


Hello Lovely! I hope your day is going good so far. Firstly, I will apologise for not posting in a very long time. I would say "I'm not going to make any excuses," but I would be lying. So I will be entirely honest, and the reason is because my motivation has been lacking with all the stress recently. Term 3 in grade 12 is most definitely not easy, keeping up with school and all the medical things ( Living With a Never-ending Headache) as well as thinking about university, formal and all that extra stuff has been slightly too much. Even though when I write it down here it doesn't seem so. But I haven't exactly been feeling great either. I've been extremely tired, obviously the headache hasn't changed and I feel like I've been  the stage of 'about to get the flu' for nearly two months now. The last thing I wanted to do was blog or film. However, today I felt like writing, though I don't have a specific topic in mind. This post will definitely be chatty, but chatty blog posts are actually my favourites to read. 

So last Tuesday and Wednesday I did the QCS exams, which were by the way the most ridiculous exams I had ever done and I've seen some pretty stupid exams. The questions were definitely not 'grade 10' level, they were quiet unclear and the answers were very much a guessing game. There is a pretty amusing Facebook page though about these exams that a lot of Queensland grade 12 students have been posting in. I think I've spent a bit too much time laughing at those memes. But now QCS is over and I have my block exams starting Monday. So far this term is not going how I had hoped. But it's not long before September holidays so I'm excited for that! 

Thinking about what I'm going to do next year has been quiet stressful, I had my future roughly planned out for a long time and had I not been hit with NDPH I think I would've gone through with it. And even though I'm trying super hard to live life as if it didn't exist, there's only so much I pretend before it just doesn't work anymore. I've always been a balance of idealistic and realistic, which makes it very hard to make certain decisions. Originally I was set on going to uni to study psychology all the way through to becoming a registered psychologist. I then began having second thoughts after realising that I just simply wouldn't be able to do it. Even high school is nearly impossible to get through with NDPH. I so badly want to finish grade 12 though so I'm putting more energy than I have into it. It's definitely taking a toll on me though. I'm really looking forward to graduation though and I will be sharing pictures! Now I've applied to study a bachelor of interior design with honours. 

Oh and I can't forget to mention Pan's Labyrinth, a Spanish film that we watched in Film and Television. I can't even express how much I loved this film. This film was very intense and confronting at times, it was one of those films that when you finish watching it you just kind of have to take it all in and then have to find someone else to talk about it with. You have got to watch it, you forget that it's a subtitled film it's so beautiful.

I'm not really sure what else to talk about at the moment. But I will share my favourite song recently. So as you may or may not know my favourite band is OneRepublic and lately I've been listening to Au Revior a lot, that entire album really. You should check it out! :)

I've been thinking about vlogging on my YouTube channel too. 

So I guess that's it for today. :D

See you in my next post! Also leave your blog links in the comments so I can head over to your blog! xx

I Finally Have a Diagnosis! NDPH

Hello again! I have the most exciting news today! Well actually it might not be all that exciting for you, but to me this is what I've been waiting for, for the last year! Firstly, for this post to make any sense to you, I'll leave a link to my original post about my never-ending headache, which explains everything you need to know before reading this. If you're a good friend of mine or know about my headache then you'll know exactly what I'm talking about in this post.

I'll briefly explain what's been happening but for a more in depth understanding I encourage you to read my post, Living With A Never-ending Headache. Basically, in July last year I was sitting in class when a very sudden headache hit me out of no where. I assumed it was just a very painful headache that would go away after some pain killers. I waited it out and when it didn't budge I tried to sleep on it. Falling asleep to begin with was a hassle, but eventually I fell asleep anyways. When I woke up, the headache was still there! I took a couple more pain killers and thought that should work, but it did nothing. That first week was hell, I was having nonstop pain in my head and along with that I was very nauseas and light headed. After a trip to the hospital with no findings I was sent back to my GP to follow up. Since then I've been prescribed with multiple medications, most of them were migraine pills or migraine preventatives. I tried nerve blocks and multiple other pills to try and help with the pain. Nothing at all touched the headache in the slightest bit. 

Of course, throughout all this I was having multiple scans including MRI's and more blood tests than I can even count. Everything came out clear and we could not figure out what on earth was wrong. After months of constant trial and error pills, tests and scans left right and centre with nothing to show, I was getting super frustrated. I was also half way through grade 11 at that point, which had become almost impossible. The worst part was that not only did nothing touch the pain, but I found that people were starting to take me less seriously. I didn't know how to explain it and nobody had heard of this before. 

After months of dead ends, I decided to start researching myself. It took a long time before I came across something called NDPH (New Daily Persistent Headache). I continued researching this particular headache and found other people suffering from the exact same thing I was. It was a relief within itself to know that I was not alone in this. These people were overseas though, and unfortunately no doctor where I live had ever heard of NDPH. 

Jumping forward a bit, I just recently found a neurologist here in Australia who specialises in NDPH and mum emailed him yesterday. He is based in Melbourne though so not too close to me. He emailed back today and then at 5:30 we spoke with him over the phone. Just over this phone call he was able to diagnose me with NDPH without me mentioning it. (This doctor is highly reputable so it's not just some fluke.) 

Now we will be going through some more processes and hopefully start a treatment plan of some sort. Even though curing this is not a guarantee, I still have hope. 

I really don't know how much sense any of this made, but I cannot begin to tell you how happy I am right now. It's almost impossible to describe. Anyways, I will post more updates about this soon! 

Thank you so much for reading this post (if you even made it to the end)!

Have a lovely day!


I've Created A YouTube Channel! ♥


Hello lovely! Today I wanted to let you know about my YouTube channel! If you read my post a little bit ago about my first video then you would have already seen that I've created a channel. But for all my beautiful readers who haven't seen that post, I'm excited to share with you my own channel where I post videos about beauty, hair, books, reviews, tags, challenges and everything in between! 

I've always wanted to make a YouTube channel ever since I deleted my previous one (I used to make videos when I was younger but I was scared people at school would see it and so I deleted it and have regretted it ever since). That's also how I came across blogging, which was a much better project for me with less anxiety. I have since overcome my fear of school friends seeing my videos and created a new channel that I'm super excited about! I even share it with my friends and they're all super supportive so I'm definitely glad I went for it. 

If you haven't seen it yet, then it would mean so so so much to me if you checked it out! Leave a comment and let me know you came from my blog, and if you do like my videos subscribe!! ♥
My YouTube Channel

This doesn't mean I'll be neglecting my blog because I love writing and the community here! 

Stay tuned for my upcoming blog posts and YouTube videos! I think for my next blog post I'll be doing a review on one of the matt essence blushes! :)